"There are things we don't want to happen, but have to
accept; things we don't want to know, but have to
learn; and people we can't live without, but have to
let go."
These are not my words but the words of 'JJ', from the TV show, Criminal Minds, as she leaves the show. I've maybe seen this show 3 times in my life and only had it on tonight because the show comes after Survivor, one of our favorites, and was busy working on the computer. The words caught my attention and thanks to the magic powers of the DVR, I was able to get the sentence down accurately and in its entirety.
With dad's passing 2 years ago on September 21st, loss is an emotion that has been very close to the surface most days. So, this 'accepting, learning and letting go', is a real and present process for me. "People we can't live without, but have to let go" is comforting, in a way. You know at some point in life there will be people you love that will be taken from you by death, and you'll have to deal with it. But you never really know the enormity of the hole that it leaves in your heart until it does. Being over the age of 50 (something), I do consider myself very fortunate, however, that experiencing a loss of this magnitude didn't happen until recently. But even though I've been blessed to have my father for so many years and lived so closely with him, it's still difficult to go through the pain of loss. I am comforted and grateful, too, in the fact that I am who I am because of him, and he taught me so much about the important things in life.
So for those of you that have lost a near and dear one at some time in your life, I hope this prayer I wrote for myself may help you, too.
"Dear Lord, I Accept the blessing of having Dad/(____) in my life, I want to Learn what having Dad/(____) in my life continues to teach me, and help me to Let Go of the pain of not having Dad/(____) here with me. In Jesus' name, AMEN."
I'm kind of amazed that this revelation came to me from a television show. I'm trying to be really careful about what I watch and listen to because what goes in, stays in and has an effect on you, whether you think it does or not. Also, lately what I see and hear, is sometimes revealed to me in a different way than a lot of people would perceive, as though I'm being taught little lessons in life. Hmmmm. I like this vantage point. This reminds of the children's song: O Be Careful, Little Eyes; better yet, the Casting Crowns song: Slow Fade. Have a look at the section - Favorite Music. I hope it works! I'm kind of designing this as I go.
I want you to know that my purpose of writing this blog is, for now, mainly an outlet to put my everyday feelings into words. Everything introspective is a writing to myself, like a diary if you will. If you happen to be going through a similar journey and can relate to my journey, I'm pleased.